30 weeks

I cannot believe I only have 10 weeks (give or take) left!! Time has just flown by, which I didn't think would happen. But I am so glad Marlee is almost in my arms!! I can't wait to meet her and see her precious face. She isn't even here yet and I've never loved anyone like I love her.

Every monday we measure my belly, for obvious reasons. Last week we did it a day early, and my belly had grown 2 inches in 6 days...wow. Marlee is going to be a chunker, I can see it now. I want her to be healthy, but slow it down in there!!

In the past 3 weeks I have already started nesting. I find this to be a really good thing. Scot and I have gotten so much done. We rearranged the bedroom to make it easier to put the bassinet/PnP next to my side of the bed. I like it this way so much better, it uses the space nicely. We also rearranged the living room, cleaned out Marlee's nursey, and cleaned all of the carpets in the house. After the shower Saturday the 14th we'll be able to get everything together!!

While nesting I also felt very creative, so I made a few things for the nursery.

 A bow hanger for all of her bows and letters for the wall above her crib.

ugh

I don't think today could get any worse. I'm waiting for my DR to fax a clearance form for my extern site. Because my hips have been hurting (pretty bad, especially at night) they want to know I can work, I guess it's a liability issue. But I have to finish my hours!!

Aside from that I cannot sleep at night. If I do it's like 2 hrs, and then I'm awake again. I'm just sore all over!! And I'm probably tired of sleeping on my side...I'm a stomach sleeper, so this is hard for me!!

27 weeks, geez.

I cannot believe I've already made it this far. Less than 13 weeks and Marlee will be here in my arms!
Everyday I think about what it's going to be like to be a Mom. Will I do everything right? Will it be instinctual? I guess I won't know until that time comes, but it's nerve wracking!

Here is my 27 week bump!

holy hiccups

I wondered when I'd feel this. Yesterday while at work I was sitting, chatting with one of the nurses, when I felt a twitch/thump from the inside repeatedly. It finally dawned on me that they were hiccups. Poor thing had them for 5 mins!!

26 weeks

Scot finally felt the baby kick! It was such a great moment. I can lay on my side, with my arm across my belly and she kicks my arm. I LOVE IT!!!

I cannot believe I have less than 14 weeks until she's here! Time seems to be speeding up. And I'm growing everyday (not such a great thing!!)

We've got to start getting her room set up!! Time is running out and we still have so much to do!!

Day at home

alone! I have nothing planned, nothing that I want to do, and I'm going to enjoy it! I feel like I'm always on the go, so this will be a nice break.

I cannot believe friday I will be 25 weeks! I feel like I just found out. I kind of wish time would slow down! I'd like to enjoy these last months of pregnancy. I have a feeling I'm going to miss this, especially since Scot and I don't plan on having anymore children.

My answered Prayer

I feel so blessed right now. I honestly felt I would never be a mom. I prayed and prayed to God that he would send me a child when the time was right, and I could handle it.

Each month I would secretly hope that this was the month that it would happen. And each time I would be disappointed. Part of me was so sad, and another was glad that I could still be selfish and only worry about myself and Scot. But I wanted so badly to love a little part of me and Scot.

All of my friends would encourage me that God would give me a baby when I was ready, and I really took that to heart. They were right, if I stopped thinking about it, worrying about it, it would happen. Thankfully the stress of school and life took my mind off of it.

The month of April my period was late. I didn't think anything of it, mainly because I didn't want to be disappointed. But I started a week later, with my full 7 days (awful, I know). Although I had started, I was nauseous. But I wrote it off as being in my head.

I started my period May 9th, which is on time. The only problem was it only lasted a day and a half. This concerned me. Not only that, my breats were INCREDIBLY sore. This wasn't usual at all, so I had made up my mind to take a pregnancy test.

I went and tanned yesterday, and while laying in the tanning bed I decided to pray. I prayed: "God if I am pregnant, please let Scot find a great job so that we can provide for this baby, and give it a better life than Scot and I had. I will cherish this baby. Amen."

After tanning I went to babysit at Kristin's. Scot called me and told me he got a job!!! I was estatic. On the way home I bought a Clear Blue Easy digital pregnancy test and went straight home.

I took the test and while waiting, Scot went over to check on it. I asked if it was still blinking, and he said yes, and for me to look at it. So I got up, and it read: PREGNANT. I could not believe it. It must be wrong. I was jumping up and down, and then I bawled.

I still cannot wrap my mind around it. It doesn't not feel real at all. But I am so excited to see what the future holds!!